i can hear the complains already, so spare me. thanks.

im gonna make a quick update coz ive got a lot on my mind and i dont really want to say most of it on here, but um, im just gonna make a quick one so i dont forget some jazz.

well lets see, these past couple weeks been really busy coz of my uncle making me paint that room, but im only doing it bc he asked me to even though i reallllly dont want to but my dad would make me do it anyways bc when it comes to that house i have no opinion. i dont think that came out right. whatever. anyways, and ive also been working my butt of with color guard.

so in the time i actually got to escape, lol, i went to my bestest friends house (EMILY OF COURSE <3) and we had such a good time. first we went to shaws to get some stuff to make bark with and a lil sum'n sum'n for lunch and she had this pasta thingy and i had a craving for motzarella (sp?) sticks so i had that. we went to her house to make bark and it was so cool, and ive never heard nor made that ever before so it was a cool experience, and my mom loved it so much shes making me ask emily for a written recipe, lol. she wont take my word for it, she wants the receipe. lol. then we had lunch and we sat and talked for awhile, and im glad we did. we really needed that, or atleast i did. i love being with her like whoa. so glad shes my best friend. then we left to pick up Madeline from babysitting and i got to babysit for a few, it was funny. i had fun being with the kids and they really seemed to like me, and it was a blast, cept for that older one constantly jumping on me for a piggy back ride. and i totally whooped them in a sword fight but i let them win. haha. hilarious. but we constantly had to watch out for the little one. she was sooooooo freakin adorable. and so some of the games we had to say no to bc we didnt want her getting hurt. and we played pretzel. haha so funnny. one of the kids purposely grabbed both my hands, i was like... hun, only take one! lol. it was fun, the lil girl was amazing, they all were, and the young girl wanted me to come back the next day and play and whatever, and she demanded that i did, before she wouldnt let me leave! lol. none of us could, we finally made a break for the car, and we all finally made it in the car, and left. then we didnt know how to get back to my house from that ladys house, so we kinda went to um... where was it- oh yeah- Merrimack! lol. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOT DANG HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!! i could not stop laughing, and we had to pay like 2 tolls and we overpaid, lol. i felt sooooo bad that she had to pay. lol, then i came home.

then this past friday i went to the chiropractor and dr. ron said i had kind of a lot out, and i told him im coming back on monday to make sure im still in check, and i only had about 3 bones out or so or something like that but he said i was in great shape and i felt the best i had ever felt in all my life. and i was so happy, and i was making jokes and just having a good time and i felt so good. and if i can, im going to go atleast once a month but i might go more bc of colorguard so i need to makesure im always in check. and dr. ron said he was going to come to our first football game or show but i just gotta give him the time and place bc he doesnt live in nashua. so wooo!

and speaking of colorguard.... rehearsals start TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! from 6-9pm but I have to be there between 430 and 5. and erikas giving me a ride, i just gotta call her and let her know. lol. im excited for tonight. i have a lot to do to prep and ive got to shower and all that jazz and eat and make sure i have all my jazz for rehearsal. and i have to remember to bring banner his cd.... haha i remembered.

cant wait to see banner and mika and sarayu, and jenn and rachael, and everyone tonight.

oh... also wanted to write in here about the weather and my dreams.
for the past couple of weeks now i havent slept more than a few hours in total and when i do, ive been having these nightmares that have me waking up practically in tears and my heart is racing and then i cant go back to sleep nor do i want to. but when i went to the chiropractor- i slept sooooo peacefully and it was amazing. and i didnt have any nightmares. however, sunday night i had 2 dreams in one night (this isnt uncommon for me) and they were pleasant. one involved me running away from nazi's and stuff and this whole movie scene that was from that movie with chevy chase and demi moore and that huge junk yard house and the only guy who can make his body parts come off... (ive had that dream before), and i had another one where i felt like i was there (that pretty much always happens in my dreams) and my grandpa was there. so so far ive seen my gram, grandpa, and uncle and sisters in my dreams and a few friends. and of course i feel like im in the dream, i can watch myself or feel like in actually in it for real.

and then last night i had another dream and im not going to tell anyone about that. it was pleasant, but id rather not give details. idk what it means yet. or do i?

anyways.... i miss my uncle bryan, and my sister shannon, and all my friends and sean...what happened yesterday!?

this whole family issue thing, is really getting to me and my mother too. its really hard watching her cry, bc she doesnt do it often, but in the past month or so, shes done it 3 times, and 2 of times were last night, and once was bc i cried. and this past week i had another breakdown, but id rather not explain it. but after i was fine and im ok now. ive just got a lot on my mind and i really needed to talk to my uncle bryan and i did, and it felt really good, and i told him everything, and thats why i cried. but i realized soooooooooo much, and even though im still lost in a lot, im gonna be alright and im getting through this tough time in my life with all the family arguing and my uncle andy being a jerk to my sister and brother in law.

And yesterday was my brother in law tony divito’s bday. Hes 20!

...anyways, haha katie just called me. crazy kid. <3

anyways, gotta get going, and get ready and other stuff, make sure im all together and make sure i have some mix cd's to warm up to and whatnot. so i'll update later. thanks. later.

con amor,
Sheena.

ps- how amazing was that last storm and the one last night! hehe. last nights was a lil crazy, but it made sense to me. <3 rain and thunder. lightening.... eh, well, its cool and everything, but scared me a lil bit. hehe.

and I still need to receive my my band dvd…. And I already paid for it. and I want to watch it so bad. And im hoping to get a job at shaws, but idk if I should right now, maybe… but I don’t want to overload myself, but the shaws that Erika is working at now, the person who hired her used to be a colorguard captain so shes willing to work around her schedule so I need to go apply, lol. my dad wont be happy but I need a job. And as it seems, I get to take drivers ed suckassssssssssssssss! But I just wont have a car to drive. Hehe, oh well. Cant complain. And im so excited bc our new principal or w.e is excited for guard since she used to be a captain too once, and she is loving our routine and the music and she said she cant wait to see the band and guard and shes going to come to the games and cheer us on! Lol. shes a pretty snazzy lady. <3 so is her mom. Lol don’t ask. Or go for it. lol later.